What I remember about Ithaca by Constantine Cavafy is that it is a place where this certain character lives in and he left home to fight for his countrymen and going home alive will be his greatest achievement.
My own Ithaca right now is to finish pre-med. Two more terms and I feel like its taking so long. I think most of the time spent is worrying about my friends. And I lost one of them already. I lost 4 already, well physically because they had to go different ways but this one is different. If I finish college, I bet you that I'll always be the girl with snacks to offer, the one who reminds what is due tomorrow, the one who is responsible for them in case they'd forget things. I'm that kind of friend to that person. And it saddens me because I'm just that kind of girl to that person. I was never able to talk to that person the way I did with the rest of my friends. Our friendship was just like that. Too much insensitivity. And I can't believe I'm only the safety net.
A while ago, I went to church and it was a relief because for the first time, I was not forced to do so. I felt like it was the right time to get back with Him again. No pressure this time. It was not because I had problems, I felt like I was ready this time. When Anima Christi was played, I felt like I was able to get every issue out of my chest. Truly, you win some, you lose some.
I do not want to be plastic and all so I will just stop being the Ruby that that person knew since we became friends. I want out. I just don't want to be your safety net because I'm not that kind of friend. I'm glad you found another person. And that's the end of it. No explanations needed. It's hurts to see this friendship that survived a lot of trials end this way.
Right now, my Ithaca is to be able to let everything off my chest and appreciate more the people that really do care about my feelings and those which are true to me. I will surprise you guys one day :D